LIFE UPDATE???????????????????????????

  • when i’m 56 and i reclaim this blog if it’s not lost to internet thieves or whatever and remains preserved i will LOOK BACK at this and LAUGH at my naive almost twenty year old self i just threw up im ognna be twenty NOOooooOOo
  • i’m going home for easter this weekend will we even go to church?? PROBS NOT but my mom’s making waffles BLESS THE WORLD!!!
  • my 10:30 AM class got cancelled today because my prof’s dog died how sad :( even if he had cclass i’d be sad and skip because i can’t handle dead dogs
  • a boy i ilked in the 12th g rade texted me last night
  • the school year is coming to a close and i am extremely sad about it and also extremely pleasd
  • sad because my two really good friends here at school have become like a family to me and im gonna miss them :( one of them lives in rhode island and theo ther is transferring :( im so sad :(((
  • BUT im going to ENGLAND next year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cannot wait but im also terrified
  • i never talk to matthew-saracen and liv-dunham anymore we’re not really friends :/
  • this summer is going 2 be good
  • i got an A on a paper i thought i’d fail : )
  • lax season is ova we won ONE game yahootie!
  • i don’t wanna wait for our lives to be over…

"I don’t want to stop you, Pacey. I don’t want to stop Dawson, and I don’t want to be stopped. I mean, that’s what this whole year has been about. We’ve been trying to stop each other from moving on and from growing up… But not you, you’re different. You’ve challenged me every step of the way, and you’ve been there every step of the way."

So this little cigarette right here has sparked a whole new brand of TFiOS hate, much of which is coming from people who claimed to love the book. 

Many people are now pointing out how “pretentious” Augustus is, and I can’t help but think, You’re only just now realizing this. He was written to be a seemingly pretentious and arrogant person. The acknowledgement of this is actually highly important because, without it, the book loses the message that a hero’s journey is that of strength to weakness

Augustus Waters has big dreams for himself. He wants to be known and remembered; he wants to be a hero; he wants to be seen as perfect. But there’s already something standing in his way… He has a disability, and society tells him that a person cannot be both perfect and disabled. So what does he do? He creates a persona for himself. He tries to appear older and wiser than he is. But the pretentious side of him is NOT who he truly is. It’s all an act. (This is evident in the fact that he often uses words in the wrong context.)

And when his cancer returns, we begin to see his mask cracking. The true Augustus begins to bleed through… Hazel even takes notice of this from time to time. And by the time we get to the gas station scene, Augustus is no longer the picture of perfection he was when we met him. The play has been canceled. The actor must reveal himself. And he’s revealed to be a weak, defenseless boy, succumbing to the cancer that is made of him. 

THE PRETENTIOUSNESS IS INTENTIONAL. It stands to show Augustus’s journey from flawless to flawed, from strong to weak. It’s the key to understanding that Augustus was the hero he always wanted to be, even if he didn’t realized it. 


*packs a bong* see im not gunna rip it cause its a metaphor. *holds it to my mouth and makes saxophone noises* the real high is life

Let’s just suck it up and french a little.